I used to really like the look of these masks and always wanted one, still do. But sometimes I think about people who attend masquerades and do things that they wouldn’t do without these masks. Does a mask that conceals so little of your face or sometimes completely conceals your identity really make something okay? No I don’t believe so. But then there are motives to think about. Maybe they dislike their current position in life and/or where they are heading and just want to let loose and be who they want to be. I personally don’t think a mask should be what makes you be free because if you can’t do it without the mask what does that say about you? Food for thought.
Thought of the night
The main thought that has been crossing my mind is that next week I will be going home for my weekend that will be 96 hours long and I will not return to base til Tuesday night. I am excited beyond belief to see my reason for being and the light of my life. I really can’t wait to spend time with my one and only and then sometime with the boys. Sometime back home will do me some good before going to North Carolina for 2 years.
As I walk…
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil.
Not because I am the baddest m-f’er there but because I have found my piece and my happiness with what I am doing with myself and am prepared to face those evils to return to the one I love. For those that fall from the grace of god and sent away to this valley with their light, their angel. I do not turn from my angel even if I believe I do not deserve her but cherish her more than money, more than anything I own, and more than anything in this world. For her I’d sit here in the valley and wait for her return if that is what she asked of me.
My thoughts of the day
At the beginning of the day I saw these two little girls with their dad and I was talking to a fellow marine of mine about what we wanted first and he said that he wants a baby girl first. Then I told him that I used to be the same til my girl told me she wanted a baby boy first and then I got into the idea. Now I am so ecstatic about having either one first that I really wouldn’t even consider being slightly disappointed about having a boy or girl first. I just looked at those little girls and thought about when I’d have a baby girl.
I think this quote works: A Son is a son til he gets a wife; a daughter is a daughter for the rest of her life
Then something happened and things were said that made my views change.
We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone.
Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.
- Orson Welles
This quote is true because all that is true. To be honest I have that fear of dying alone, always have but recently watching my grandfather pass on from this world, god bless his soul, I saw my grandmother just seem so alone and slowly lose her sanity. She isn’t long for this world I’m afraid but she has turned so scared and it’s saddens me beyond belief. Is this really how everything suppose to happen. Love is an illusion that helps us deal with dying alone because we BELIEVE we aren’t alone? Love is not an illusion because it’s as real as fear. But that moment of not dying alone is. So I leave this post with this last quote.
I’ve learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.
- Maya Angelou
Because yes maybe the illusion is just that but it’s about what you mean to the people around you. I’ve been feeling empty since that incident earlier today but with time I’ll forget what was said but I’ll never forget how she made and makes me feel, good and bad. Mostly the good. =)
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My Love’s Favorite Quote
“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe
Simple quote that has alot of meaning to the woman of my life. I like it, I understand it. What it means to me and what it means to her are similar but completely off base. For her it means the was she is, is the way I have to accept her for better or worse. Completely true and I do and I love her with all her flaws that she sees in herself that are only pieces of perfection in my eyes. But to me it means that she can be herself in every way that I don’t like but I love her and when the tornado breaks loose I have to stand my ground and show her that no matter how bad it gets I am by her side through thick and thin, & when the dust settles regardless of who was right or wrong, I am there for her like nothing has changed because nothing does change. I love her for everything she does right and everything she does wrong, and because of that I maybe worth her time.
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I do not own this song in any way shape or form. -Battlefield by Ryan Tedder-
I think about you all the time even when I’m constantly busy. Nothing on earth or in the heavens can keep you from my mind because you are my reason for doing what I do and trying so hard at it.
My gf is my miracle
well honestly it’s weird that I never met my gf or even remember seeing her around considering she might’ve well sat beside me for roughly 4 years of my life prior to meeting her. When I moved from my house where I was raised I was leaving behind a part of me I no longer wanted to be. I was alone n desperate for love honestly, not for sexual reasons but to have someone to call mine. For me it’s always been about love and romance rather than regular guy mentality of sex. After moving my gf now was at a school not too far away, went to the same church for a couple years n liked to be out and about. It still astounds me to know that before meeting the only girl that cares about me as much as I care about her, she was basically next to me and never saw her. She says things could’ve been like this sooner but they wouldn’t have been. No female like who I was romanticly. I was that guy in the friend zone but I changed enough to where I could get out of there. Surprisingly enough I resisted my gf’s advances but she kissed me nd I gave in to my desire to submit. I don’t regret submitting to her because without her I probably would’ve given up on myself. I love her more than anything in the world. Semper Fidelis
My truth
Well I believe it’s normal to have fantasies of someone famous but I don’t have to fantasize about being with a famous female that most men and some females find attractive because I have a gf that, for me, has no flaw no matter what she tells me. I have seen movies with actresses my friends swoon over and all i think is “my gf has a cuter this or better that” honestly have not found one average or famous female that I think is better than my girlfriend. That’s just something I wanted to share.
Misery
I am in misery there ain’t nobody who can comfort me….not that I didn’t care it’s what I show…why won’t you answer me??? The silence is slowly killing me….why do you do what you do to me?? Why won’t you answer me?…sometimes these cuts are much deeper than they seem…I am in misery…im desperate and confused so far away from you.
